Afraid

I was afraid. When the Lord came to me in a dream 29 years ago I knew I wanted to follow Him without question. The first few months I was on fire for Him, I was throwing oil and swinging bibles. I was zealous with no wisdom. I didn’t know that I had to come down to live in the real world after that stage. 

When I did life crashed in. I lost my son and then went through a divorce. That caused me to try to go back to my old life. 5 years of being backslidden yielded nothing but baggage. See I had experienced Jesus and nothing else compared. I was like Peter, I tried to go fishing again but caught nothing.

One of the things I learned over the years was that it didn’t have to be all or nothing. God could use my entire personality. My family is funny. I’m not sure if y’all know that but we are.. and I love to laugh. I love to smile. I’m very emotional so I will cry easily as well. I was afraid I would lose all of that because the people I had met were none of those things. Then I saw some Christian comics and knew that God created laughter and that I was fine being my authentic self.

I am no longer afraid. 

This is me.

God loves me. 

God loves you. 

Be your authentic self. 

He can use every aspect of your life.